I went to work sick today. Sinus pressure, achy everything, sore throat. I coped by staying in perpetual motion. I knew if I stopped, even for a second, it would all be over. Today was our Valentine's Poetry Slam, which was a huge success, but I knew a sub would not have let them run amok as they prepared. After their Poetry Slam and chocolate fondue party, they inhaled sweets of all kinds given to them by their Valentines. If only I could harness such energy for myself. Once three o'clock rolled around, they left and then Poetry Cafe students arrived. Really? When I finally arrived home and submerged myself in a tub of warm, bubbly water, I heard their voices calling my name again and again.
Ms. Blady, Ms. Blady, Ms. Blady
When I used to work at the Superfair in the Superdome, there would be discount nights and we would be bombarded with the dregs of the city. I mean really low-class, rude customers. My cousins can deliver comical impersonations. It wasn't funny then, though. These customers would surround all sides of our booth shouting, ordering, demanding. When I rested my exhausted body on those nights, I could still hear them yelling at me until I fell asleep. My students say my name at least ten times before the first bell rings. No exaggeration. Today it was even more noticeable because every noise reverberated in my aching skull and they were hyped up on so much sugar.
Ms. Blady, Ms. Blady, Ms. Blady
I've jokingly asked them to call me something else. They say Shannon or Future Dr. Fishman... they're hopeful for me. I've asked for something more exotic. They call me Esmerelda, Olivia, Anastasia, but eventually, it's back to Ms. Blady, Ms. Blady, Ms. Blady.
As I listened to my name echoing in my head this evening, I started to wonder why they so often address me before they talk to me. When speaking to someone that is right in front of me, I don't usually start with his or her name. I just start talking. There are 22 of them. They want to make sure I hear them. They want to make sure I'm paying attention to them. They know that there are 22 of them. They know I'm on all cylinders, in all directions, at all times. They just want to make sure I'm present. Somehow, I was present today, and I truly enjoyed their Valentine exchange (the only cute part of this commercial holiday) and their performances, but now it's time for me to crash.
Ms. Blady, Ms. Blady, Ms. Blady